I can’t decide if I just take less time to think recently, or if I’ve just gotten dumber. The latter is more likely. Self reflection is the best reflection. But what about self refraction? is there such a thing? Did I just invent something?
Refraction, the bending of a wave. The reason why I will never go spear fishing, despite all of my primal instincts to go spear fishing. If I can reflect on myself, if i can see me while being me, then why can’t I also witness the refracted me? I am far from a straight forward mirrior image. I walk no path that is considered straight and narrow. I’m bent every which way. The me on the surface is not the me that is under the water. Even ducks know that.
So, I’m taking a look at me, all bent and mis angled. And I understand why people have trouble really knowing other people. It’s actually a lot like spear fishing, we wade into unkown waters, we wait, and when we see something we want we strike.
More often than not we miss the target. We overshoot, we under shoot, we just don’t end up with what we want. We have no idea where the hell that fish really is. On the surface we’re all great. We say the right things, we are superficially perfect. On the surface we think we we know someone, we think we know exactly where that fish is.Yet, we keep missing it under water. People aren’t reflected they’re refracted. Nothing and no one is straight forward, just as the surface is not a true indicator of what’s below it. Why bother looking straight ahead when every road is bent?
We need to stop looking at the surface of things expecting everything to be exactly how it appears. No one and no thing is transparent, reflections are not the key.